D. J. :
She’s a beautifully plain girl who daydreams nightly about a life she’ll never lead.
God, laughter, music, friends, marshmallows, lollipops, mochi and bread are some things that make up her everything. (:
a bundle of topsy-turvy contradictions, she loves every merry minute of her singlehood. (:
also, someone once told her our prayers were like our love letters to God. so here they are. (:

Wishes for never-ending laughter &for forever to meet no end.

Let's sing You a love song for i'm coming back to the Heart of Worship, where it's all about You.

DANIELLE. DANNY. FENG SHUI. FION. INEZ. TINGJUN.

Lovedrops♥
x x x x

thank you ever so much for always being there to listen to me, protect me, for blessing me with your everlasting presence. you gave me the strength and courage to move on, to strive hard though my heart said otherwise. despite everything you gave me the chance to do well, though i know i do not deserve it, because i didn't work hard for it. but you did. every step of the way were your footprints in the sand, while i simply bum-ed off you. yet you said nothing, offered me so much &still love me so unconditionally. i want to be worthy, worthy of your praise, worthy of your love.
thank you thank you thank you.
&i love you. (:

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i want to go uni i want to go uni i want to go uni
NOW.
*sounds like a spoilt brat*

please.


rah. so what if it's the path less travelled? my dream, my wish, my mind. it's something that i really, really want. i don't care how tough it might get, i just want to grab that opportunity, should i get it. i'm going to get it, i will get it.. gosh, i really want it. [POPT. :D]

LOL. i'm such a twit.

maybe it's silly for me to choose poly. i know i'm a JC girl at heart, the comfort of uniforms, of fixed lessons, of people i know studying around me. especially the thought of maybe being able to studying in raffles makes me ever so, ever so excited. but after JC, what then? i have to step out of my comfort zone to experience something different. since it'll happen sooner or later, why not now? before i get too used to familiarity again. i'm scared i'll be lonely, that i cannot cope, but i will try. i will make poly the right choice. for me. (:


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i realise it was selfish of me, &it's all my fault. i'm sorry i lied but i was thinking of myself. it was so hard for me to concentrate &if i didn't lie.. i don't think i could have studied at all. which maybe wouldn't have made much of a difference compared to hwo little i did. not that i'm trying to shirk responsibility, but i didn't think it was very nice of you to spring that on me just before exams. to think i thought you knew me. come to think of it, you never believed i could do it.. always the pessimist. well, i showed you. it's over now anyway. we both did too little, too late.


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reasons i didn't deserve to do well:

1. i'm such a bad, bad, evil person.
2. i didn't put in enough effort &everyone else did so much more than me.
3. so unfair that when i do study, i actually do quite poorly.
4. i make silly decisions that compromises so many things.
5. i am undeserving.

see how unfair the world is? a person who deserves nothing gets more than she expected, or deserves.

sidenote: darn the person who told me COP for raffles was TWO freaking points. made me totally lose hope, because i don't take HCL and the best i could do was i miserable four. because of that, i had no motivation to work hard and didn't even bother to try. now i realise COP is actually four, i'm short by two. *heart breaks* if only i..
what, had studied? -.-
anyway, i'm not blaming you (don't even remember who you are), i should have done my best. my dad always says, the better you do, the more choices you have. i simply wasn't good enough. life is too short for regrets &i believe there's a reason for everything, so there.


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because i must &i know i can, so i will. [:


Who will I be
It's up to me
All the never-ending possibilities
That I can see
There's nothing that I can't do
Who will I be
Yes, I believe
I get to make the future what I want to
If I can make up anyone and know the choice is
Up to me

Labels: truly so. (: